Decision [07 Jun 2005|12:06am] [ mood | happy ] [ music | I wanna come over, wish I really had the song ] Last night I was propositioned by several people. Last night I was flirted with. Last night many people realized I was legal, young, and tender. Last night I realized, I am playing a cruel game. This game of relationships, isn't one to play when you don't know where you are. It was a cruel thing to play this game when I didn't know what I wanted, for how can someone brace themselves for the future when they don't know what it is they're loved one will want tomorrow; what if he decides he wants to be single. James made a decision tp be with her. I am poision disguised as dinner though, for I don't know who I am. In fact, all I know about myself is what everyone sees, not even I see past the cardboard exterior of my box. I realized though I care about people enough not to put them through this, Ive made the mistake once. Let be known I am a risk, you have bettter odds with Vegas then you have with me, and not because Im picky but just because I change directions so much. This isn't just a phase, I will find out more about myself in time, but this is how I live for I find sedentary lifestyle boring. Enough about that though for I am smiling, why am I smiling you ask; because I had a kickass time and I had people come through for me, they know who they are but I'll thank them again. Thanks Kim, James, Doug, and Casey. The past 4 days have been awesome and I cant wait to do it again, to meet new people, to be glomped, to see others try to strut their stuff in interesting costumes. This summer I am going to try to change for the better, I am going to try and get a gym membership and be a better housekeeper and probably a better friend. You know alot of people think Im off-the-wall-crazy but I prefer it that way, for it often a nice contrast to my often serious nature. I love a-kon, the people I meet there are like few I meet everyday. Congrats to the elevastor volunteers for zero over loaded elevators and to the medical staff for handling the crowd so well. Well wish me luck tomorrow, I return to closing the deli, but at least the give me time to do it now. Bye a-kon attendess, I love you all. Signed, Miroku post comment

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